“I don’t miss him anymore. Most of the time, anyway. I want to. I wish I could but unfortunately, it’s true: time does heal. It will do so whether you like it or not, and there’s nothing anyone can do about it. If you’re not careful, time will take away everything that ever hurt you, everything you have lost, and replace it with knowledge. Time is a machine: it will convert your pain into experience… It will force you to move on and you will not have a choice in the matter.”—Charles Yu (via mrsjacktorrance)
Last show at our home town venue. It was perfect though. I couldn’t imagine the ending of it being any other way. I had a blast hanging out with great friends. The place is falling apart and it needs closed down. The roof literally started falling down tonight. It holds a lot of great memories and as weird as it sound, it helped me transition into who I am today. I’ll miss it. RIP Mad Hatter.
I’m too scared to go get a hair cut because I don’t want them to mess up my length, I just need bangs. So therefore I’m going to go hang out at my sisters house. Then later tonight I’m going to the last show at our home town venue, Mad hatter.
This year I feel like I actually have things to be thankful for. I’m thankful for the fact that I have actually gotten closer with my family in the past few months. I’m not a big family person, but since my sister moved back here, I feel closer to her and my mom more now then I ever have. And even though I barely see my dad, I think this has made up for that.
And most important of all, I’m thankful for my friends. Even though in the past year I have lost a few, I have gained a few that have changed my life. I’m thankful for Sara, Emily, Tab, Jeni, and Amy and of course all the guys Eric, Sam, Nick, Jordan, and Ross. You guys have helped me get through a lot this year and we have had endless fun times together. I hope that this next year makes us grow even closer and that we add a ton of new memories to the ones we already have. I love you all and I’d be lost without you.
“Sometimes we fight through the regret and remorse of our mistakes — our malice and our jealousy and the shame we feel for not being the people we were meant to be. And that’s when we find our way to something better or when something better finds its way to us.”—Dan Scott, One Tree Hill (via kelseymagnolia)
I know it’s late But I’ve been up for days We haven’t spoken in far too long Cause I have nothing left to say And I’m a mess with all this constant stress (You always know what’s best) But that won’t stop the restlessness
All I have left are Traces of the city skyline to remind me of Where I’m from
We can’t start over again “It’s so fucking cold” She said “I don’t know what to do Ben”
Cause you always said I’m worth more than I know You always said I’m to impatient to let things grow Maybe you’re right but there’s something you should know
First, close the door I want you to know that This love is war Look out for the mines Yeah we’ve all been here before My body is weak, but my heart can endure
I said “let’s just get you in your bed” Tomorrow we’ll sew the seams And you can tell me about your dreams